Ok so Right now I'm trying to deal with my own mind and thoughts. Idk what's wrong with me I can't explain myself quite well at the moment.I'm not saying I'm not happy I'm not saying I'm sad I'm just kind of mellow at the moment...Idk what I am like idk how I feel.I don't even know what's wrong This feeling or mood only comes over me when I'm alone or whenever I actually have nothing to occupy me and like when I have time to stop and think. Does that make sense ? I'm sorry if it doesn't i'm just trying to write the best I can. Nothing is actually wrong I just keep getting these weird moods when I'm alone. Like during the week as soon as I get home I pretty much stay in my room and I only come out to eat and get a shower. I used to never do that. Wanna know why I hate being by myself ?! THIS is WHY.See if I'm by myself I get this feeling or mood or whatever THIS is and it upsets me because I don't know how to explain myself. I hate getting lost in my own thoughts. I get in this mood when I'm by myself that I can never pull out of unless I'm talking to someone or if I can't talk to someone I turn my music on. And if none of that helps then I try to sleep and sometimes THAT doesn't even work. This mood or feeling or whatever THIS is effects my dreams and it prevents me from being able to go to sleep. And if sleeping doesn't work then I try to write how I feel. Like poems or I just write random crap.I can't even explain my own thoughts anymore, I can't explain what goes on in my mind anymore like I can't even write poetry anymore. Hallah and Blake can do it so easy. I used to be able to do it easy like that,but for some reason I can't now. I love hanging with my friends they get me through everything and keep me happy..I love my friends :D Idk I just hope this makes sense sorry if it doesn't...its just what's going on in my mind and I wanted some answers to understand WHY I feel like this when i'm alone. So what would YOU call this ? So if you think you could help do tell :)
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I would say if you are in this mood when you are alone. Don't just go to your room when you get home. Get active with your parents. Talk to them about their day. I bet they would love for you to be really interested in what is going on in their lives. Don't coup yourself up. We are meant for community. Get out and commute with folks! Even if it is your parents.
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- Sean
well this is marthaaa. i agree with sean, and i know how you feel cause i used to do that but now i go outside and do photography or talk to my parents about everthing going on well hallahs gma is calling us xD we gotta go :O
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ReplyDeletethanks for the shout out girl =] love you. so idk. i deal with this a lot too. thats one of the reasons i lift weights, to get out stress, and write poetry, again to releive stress. i guess what you and i feel when alone is stress. like when your with other people you don't really think about it. But when your alone everything sets in and it kinda becomes reality. you have nothing to do but just face it. getting past it is easy. just occupy yourslef with music, which can be a stress reliever too. just find an outlet that you can reach regularly and do that anytime you get this feeling. Pray. Read your bible. Sing church songs. i constantly find myself singing at work. Why? stress. it keeps my mind on God and he'll get me through. and he'll get you through too. =] i know it. I'm praying for you and i want you to know you're in my thoughts and heart. i'm here anytime girl =] you know that. =]
ReplyDeleteHa, well I'm not going to write that humassive thing I wrote to you today, but you knowwww. And I loveee you:)
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