The Earth is one great planet that our Lord God has made for us, is it not? Every day when I am as stressed as can be, I tend to look for God in all the things around me. The other day I saw a cute little robin pulling out a worm from the ground. As I watched the robin eat the worm, my mind started to wander. I came across the thought of "Wow my God spent so much time on such a small creature. That little worm makes a lot happen. It keeps the soil rich for gardens, and provides food for birds and small creatures." Basically seeing that small creature made me think about how something so small can be so important in life and can make a huge difference. I love the fact that God took his time to make something so small and so detailed. I know that was very random but for some reason when I see nature at work, it makes me very happy and can cheer me up in an instant. A couple of weeks ago Sean was teaching a lesson about trying to see God in everything. And when Sean said those words it made me realize that I need to always be thankful and admire what I have. And when things get rough in life God will always be here to listen. That send comfort through my body. Like I've always known that God will always be here for me, but I guess just hearing it that day made me realize I need to really be a more positive happy person. I let the smallest things get me down, and I really shouldn't let those small things, that won't soon matter, upset me so easily. I want to be my positive always happy self again...it's not that I'm a depressed person its just I've had a lot of bad things happen so far in this year of 2010. In January my dad got a DUI and went to jail for a night. My mom had to bail him out and that really took a toll on my mom and I. This affected many of things. 1. I had to start getting rides home with friends. 2. My mom had to work overtime almost everyday, making her stressed. And 3. We were very low on money. It was a very rough time. I would cry in my room every night for a straight month. It's really hard seeing your father do something so stupid... I feel so awkward around him now. I can't look him in the eye or anything. I have kept this a secret, thinking that people would judge my dad and such. I only told a handful of people. Those people helped me very much in this situation and I thank them for that, but what I actually should have done was opened up at church and told Sean and everyone. Well now by posting it on here I have finally got it out and I feel a big burden being lifted off my shoulders! I have also thought of this situation in more of a positive way now. I have come to the theory that what if God let this happen to my father to teach him a lesson? My dad has always had a drinking problem, but he has never gotten caught before. I have tried and tried to talk to him since I was 9. I have written him letters, sat down and talked to him, and I have prayed for him over the years. Nothing seemed to work. Until he got his DUI. I hope by this he has finally learned his lesson. Overall I have tried to look for God in this situation and I have found him. Even though my dad has changed my life,I have forgiven him of what he has done. I am also strongly against drinking now. Which is a great thing. So there are some positive things that have come out of this situation. I want to be a positive, strong, young Christian. And that's exactly what I am going to try to do. I'm so glad I have so many great friends to get me through hard times like this one. I need to keep my head held high and trust in the Lord. He will always see me through.
